After 5 months with my little man…this mama is finally going back to work. Although I am excited to see my coworkers and getting back to my work routine, I can’t help but feel mixed emotions about my first day back.
I feel all sorts of feelings today. I feel sad, excited, nervous, uneasy, happy and kind of want to vomit. I’m sad because I’m leaving my little guy for 13 hours and won’t be able to spend time with him at all today. I’m excited and happy to see my coworkers and to be able to do what I love again. I’m nervous and uneasy having someone else watch my baby. And because of all of these mixed feelings I definitely feel like I want to vomit. Any of you mamas felt the same way?
The first day of work after maternity leave definitely isn’t easy. But prepping for this day helped me get through it. The night before, I laid out and prepared everything I needed for work, packed my lunch, prepared bottles for my little man, made sure all my work phone numbers were written down and my daughters school necessities were packed up. I woke up earlier than usual to make my morning coffee to go, got ready and actually dolled my face up to boost some confidence in going back, kissed my kiddos and left for my 13 hour day. I couldn’t help but think of what my little man was doing and whether or not he was crying for his mama, but my sitter sent pictures and updates throughout my whole day away which put me at ease to know he was happy and being well taken care of. After making it through my day, this mama is ready to spend some time with my babies.